Friday, May 22, 2009

Me: FUCKTARD


So it was my birthday yesterday and I experienced something different than I usually do.
I think the morning part of the day was exceptional but as the night ensued things just began to fall apart for me. It really kinda sucks though because I don't really have an opinion of really how the day should have played out in the first place!

I am just in the worst mood I have been in, in quite a while and everything seems to suck right about now. I am feeling this way then you ask me a question that I presume you thought would put some fire under my ass and said, "It's like you're satisfied with this mediocre life." I am satisfied. I am satisfied in the achievements I am making, I am satisfied with the down time I have currently to bring my thoughts together before ore school. I am happy that we live in a house with a dog and two cats, I am happy that I live with you. I am happy that I study when I am supposed to. I am happy that I go to Tea Rex. I am happy I have a job. I am happy I workout in the mornings now. I am happy I do things that make me relaxed. I am happy with it. 

I think we all have phases in life that we go through until we unltimately die. Right now we are in scholl. That means that we work and go to school. We live, we have friends, we form bonds and keep bonds for the rest of our lives. We do so much I am offended you even call it a mediocre life. It's not. We have a good life, and great potential for the future. 

So next time; speak for yourself. I'm sorry that I am making your life so mediocre.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Just when I think I am the farthest from reality...


HEY! 

I think I really want to write about my thoughts in my idle moments. I have come to think about how I revert back to my ways of yore. I revert back to my couch potato days. all I do is watch television and wish and dream of what could be. My future. The thing that seems so far in the distance. When I am watching television I am thinking of things I could be doing instead like research or studying to better myself. Right now I don't have anything I am currently researching, but I have the motivation and determination. I see myself getting somewhere good. I only become insecure in my idle moments.

Everyone has them; idle moments.. I just get wierd and dejected during mine.

-Desiderata